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We are intrepid, we carry on. Or at least try..

2011-04-19T22:37:00.004+08:00

Can I interest anyone is making me lunch? :D

A kiss is just a kiss, a sigh is just a sigh.

The fundamental things apply,

as time goes by.

-Sam, Casablanca

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big, dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick — It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh — Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around. And the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you — Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

-10 Things I Hate About You.

Yes, I felt the thunder, Mister Look-Like-I-Don't-Give-A-Damn.

2011-03-12T00:03:00.002+08:00

School.. Meh.

School + Awkwardness .. :(

MBTs.. arghh!!

Help? Please?

Last year, this year. Same ol', same ol'.

2010-11-26T21:06:00.003+08:00

Funny how it's been a year but nothing has changed. I'm still stuck where I was even though I knew it was over from the start. All I can say is that I now know exactly how stubborn I really am.

You? You'll get over me.
He'll find someone or somewhere else to get his kicks from.
& me? Once was more than enough.
& I don't think I want to watch reruns.
'Coz when you do, you don't guess the ending, hope for the best or pray that everyone comes out alive.
You already know what happens and how it's going to happen.
Just roll the credits already.

Play Lists

2010-11-14T22:06:00.003+08:00

You know how everyone has this mental play list of songs that reminds them of people? Sometimes it's about people they don't quite like. It could also be old flames. Well, here's my play list related to guys. Ranging from dad to friends to ex-es to crushes. Some people have more than one song references. Let's see if you can guess who's who. :)

King of Anything - Sara Bareiles

A Little Easier - Leddra Chapman

Sorry - Buckcherry

Come On Get Higher - Matt Nathanson

Be There - Howie Day

Between The Lines - Sara Bareiles

Built to last - Melee

Candle (Sick And Tired) - The White Tie Affair

Daybreak - Marie Digby

Don't Want An Ending - Sam Tsui

Crush - Rosette

He Said, She Said (Time We Let Go) - NLT

Scar - Missy Higgins

Shelter - Corrinne May

Stars Falling Down - Kina Grannis

Strong Enough - Kina Grannis

Decisions decision..

2010-10-30T17:04:00.002+08:00

I feel like I've just lost my best friend...

I'm a very logical person. I think things through and do what makes the most sense. I listen to my head and try not to let feelings get in the way. However, the one time I decide that I shall listen to my heart, it's made out to be the most irrational decision I've made. Since every other person I've talked to doesn't know the full story and I myself have thought through every single detail about what may happen, what would probably not happen, what I'm giving up in contrast to what I gain, does that still make my decision irrational? I've certainly given great though into this and if this is what I still think is best for myself, if that still so stupid a decision? I would call it a selfish decision but certainly not a dumb one.

I can't say for sure that my decision will bring me happiness or joy or even contentment but if I never tried and I'll never be at this crossroad again, will I ever know?

Don't argue the point will be wasted,

'Cos every time I begin you just ended,

Everything that I wanted worlds ago.

What now?... JC2 or Singapore Poly?

2010-10-13T21:36:00.003+08:00

Well, promos are over and I got back my dismal geography marks which I probably deserve. That's what you get for trying to be a smart-ass and not study the promo package even though it was simply 7 pages or so (The other subjects gave stacks thick enough to compile in a file). I guess it was the complacency I had towards geography because I believed it was a subject I believe to be 'simple' possibly even 'easy'. I must have thought wrong. Oh well, to err is human. All I can do now is hope I still get a chance to right my wrong attitude next year in JC 2, that is. Even my CL'B grades were not up to standard. Granted, I was top in my class for it and I earned myself a merit. Even so, one is supposed to improve over time not become worse.

So what happens next? Well, if I'm lucky, I'll get the 'advanced' status to JC2. Otherwise, I'm retained and off to poly I go. Time to look back at those poly courses I had considered almost a year ago. Thank goodness I'm still eligible for all poly courses that are not Chinese based. It might be a longer route but with patience I'll get to university anyhow. At least I can take solace in knowing I'll be taking up something I actually enjoy and perhaps that way I'll be able to do better.

I'm probably getting back my GP and biology results tomorrow. Possibly even maths. Wish me all the best because I'll be needing it. It's kinda late for regrets and feeling bad about it now does nothing. Promos are over. My fate is sealed. Right now I'm just concentrating on PW and my application of differentiation tutorial. After all, I am still a JC student and until I know the full extend of the damage I've caused myself, I'm just going to do what I have to and currently, that means completing my Maths tutorial..

p.s. I absolubly hate my retainers.

Hoping for the best but expecting the worst..

2010-10-05T22:02:00.003+08:00

Promos

are

over!!

But that doesn't mean it's a call for celebration. Geography's probably going to be atrocious and economies doesn't fall that far behind on the fail scale. Thankfully, I see hope in finally passing maths and biology. Or maybe just secure an 'S' each. Oh well, at least I think I did my best in GP. Whatever it is, please please PLEASE!! I need to promote!!

Horrible results aside, the rest of the week is full of enjoyment. I think. That is is you enjoy visits to army camps, Cyber Wellness and Sex Ed workshops and of course, not forgetting the PW lectures. At least there's still the JC1 bash to look forward to on Friday. Hopefully it'll be more of a hit than a miss.

I guess that all for for this entry. No drama, just plain facts. At least till next time.

I'm caught up in something I don't get,
And I don't understand how I got here,
But I'm losing everything I knew,
And it was all for you.
Could you be a little easier on me?

2010-09-06T22:06:00.002+08:00

I promise, I swear, across my heart and swear to die,

WILL.

REOPEN THIS.

DEAD BLOG.

ONCE PROMOS END... :)

lottsa love,<3

BUSYBUSYBUSY!!!!

2010-02-12T19:29:00.002+08:00

Hey guys! I know I said I would blog regularly but I don't think I can. JC life is really starting now and it demands longs hours and blah blah blah. As I'm typing this, I'm doing geog homework. Yes, homework. And I have an Econs project too! So as you can tell, I'll be hella busy over this CNY holiday. In fact, you know what? I don't think it'll be much of a holiday.

Enough of the mundane matters. Today was CNY celebration. 10A202 is officially the JC1 class that cam-whores the most! Ha! The celebration itself was pretty boring actually. We had to sit through about 30 minutes of dragon and lion dances before going for a break and then up to the hall for the mini concert. Half the JC1 classes has to watch the concert from LT5 as the hall can't hold the whole school sadly. So my class sat up in the hall and cam-whored the whole time!

As this is Friendship Week, MJC played the Angel & Mortal game where the angel has to get the mortal a gift and write a letter to them. Everyone has an angel and a mortal. So everyone has to give a gift and receive a gift. My mortal actually took the effort to hunt me down and find out my name through means I still don't know about. Kinda freaky actually since nobody told her. So glad she loved my gift.

Well, that's all for now. Happy CNY! Collect lots of red packets and split it wil me! Haha.
Signing off, Evelyn. :)

Excited? Anxious? Scared? ARGHH!!!!

2010-01-26T23:15:00.003+08:00

That one little sms that's going to chart our paths for the next two or three years will start coming in about 45 minutes! Gosh! No word can describe how I feel right now.

Heartbreak warfare.

2010-01-26T22:52:00.004+08:00

Lightning strikes
Inside, my chest to keep me up at night
Dream of ways
To make you understand my pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Drop his (her) name
Push it in and twist the knife again
Watch my face
As I pretend to feel no pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare.

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Just say so...

How come the only way to know how high you get me
is to see how far I fall
God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me
but I can't break through at all.

It's a heartbreak...

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight
Let's just fix this whole thing now
I swear to God we're gonna get it right
If you lay your weapon down
Red wine and ambien
You're talking shit again, it's heartbreak warfare
Good to know it's all a game
Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak warfare.

-Heartbreak Warfare, John Mayer

SCREW IT!

Morbid much?

2010-01-23T23:32:00.005+08:00

Just came back from my grandmother's sister's wake. It's sad especially when you start thinking about your own in future. It's a morbid thought, I know but I can't help but wonder who will be at mine. Will the people I know now be there or would I have already have attended their's or maybe we've grown apart such that we don't know each other anymore. Will there be many people there? Would I be missed? Would I have achieved enough or made a big enough impression to actually be remembered? If so, what incident or event would I be remembered by? Would I have made good use of my time on Earth or would I just be returning to the ashes in vain? So many questions I don't have an answer to yet. In fact I wouldn't have an answer until I'm far into my twilight years. That is indeed a long way to go but once in a while, you just can't help but to wonder...

On a happier note, my new wardrobe will be delivered on Wednesday. Can't wait. On top of that, my lovely mother allowed me to make a couple of online purchases so I bought a couple of tops. They should arrive in the mail by Tuesday. Ohya, mummy and I also went to a flea market next to Katong Shopping Centre earlier today, bought me more stuff. Mad happy now. xD

Okay, I guess that's all for now. I'm going to have to adjust the time I sleep and wake now since school will be starting this Thursday. Wish me luck!

I must, I must be gracious.

2010-01-17T22:33:00.004+08:00

So what if it hurts me? So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge, my feet run out of ground?
I got to find my place, I want to hear my sound.
Don't want to care about all the pain in front of me
'Cause I'm just trying to be happy
-Happy, Leona Lewis

I have a lot in life to be thankful for. Firstly, being here. Where I am here in Singapore. If things had been even just a little bit different, I would have ended up in an orphange in China just like my older sister. So yeah, China jokes, not funny. At least not to me. I'm not ashamed to say I was adopted from China. It's nothing humiliating. It's the opposite really. I feel proud and it's a reminder to cherish what I have because there are so many other girls in China who would give anything to be in my place.

Looking back, I've done a lot of stupid things. I've always been blur. Even slow at times. I know. I've never been seen as smart. I was always the one no one expects to score well or do anything right. MOE thought so, my extended family agreed, my parents would never say it out loud but I could see it. I don't blame them.

I used to be the most problematic child in Kindergarden and primary school. Firstly, I wouldn't sit still. Secondly, I wouldn't stop talking. Thirdly, I just refused to do my homework. On top of all that, I was always falling ill. It's no wonder why the teachers never really liked me. So when my pathetic PSLE results came out, no one was really surprised.

Back then, I was too young to understand what that would mean. It was just another piece of paper. So, I ended up at Bedok North Secondary. At 12, I saw it as an adventure. It would be the first time I would be mixing around with actual boys! (I grew up mainly around females. My dad doesn't count.) That explains why I was so boy-crazy in sec 1. I got so caught up I didn't bother about my own friendships because my new found relationship was so much more special. At least that was how I felt then. Then in sec two, I got into some trouble with classmates. That brought me back to Earth and helped me get my head out of the clouds. But then, I got caught up in some new drama and started a new phase of self mutilation. I'm not proud of it. I still have the scars on my right arm as reminders of my stupidity. It wasn't until sec 4 did I completely outgrow that phase.

Maybe it's a little early talk. I still have a long way to go, many more lessons to learn and even more obstacles to overcome. I can't say I'm not scared because I'm not just scared. I'm terrified. Who wouldn't be? Especially when it comes to starting all over again in a new place with no familiar faces. Yes, I'm talking about being in a new school. It's already more or less confirmed that I'll get into a JC. Now it's just a matter of WHICH JC. Wherever it is I'm headed, the number of people I'll know can be counted with the fingers on one hand. So yes, I'm frightened to death. I don't like new places or new people. I don't make friends easily. I don't like people fast. I'm not all that likeable either. It's like starting Sec 1 all over again except I have no idea what to expect. I can't explain how I feel nor can I exactly describe it. All I can say is that is a good kind of fear. I think.

Getting this far in life, I have everyone who has been in it to thank. The friends, my family, the teachers who never gave up on me, even the people I never really got to know. I wouldn't be who I am without everyone. I may not have made it this far. So, thank-you. For making me who I am. I wouldn't have it any other way.

I'll live with Carpe Diem engraved on my heart.

Clubbing for a Cause.

2010-01-15T22:10:00.005+08:00

Just came back from the first committee meeting for an upcoming event 'Clubbing for a Cause'. This event is special as it is a colleboration of three YECs in the East. Namely, Eunos YEC, Tampines- Changkat YEC and Pasir Ris YEC. This makes this a huge project under PAYM. The aim is to raise funds for a youth beneficiary through a clubbing event. Target group would be Poly, JC2 students, University students, other students in tertiery education and NS men. Basically, the youths over 18 as it is a clubbing event and hence, club rules apply. Entry price would be between $15 to $25 and may or may not come with a free drink depending on how much we can raise. All this will be finalised by a later date.

The name of the event would probably be changed. The event will basically be held in a club. We're pushing for Zouk. Our second choice would be Butter Factory. 70% of proceeds go to the youth charity beneficiary. The remaining 30% will be used to cover cost. Of course like every other fund raiser, there must be Guest of Honours. So, come and you'll probably get to see your MP dancing and clubbing along with you too. Performances will also be held for the first hour or so. More info at a later date.

Also, looking for talented youth willing to perform for charity. Not necessary to be over 18. Those interested please email me or IM me if you have me on MSN. Yours truly will also be able to enter as I am part of the OC. Cool right? I'm not even 17 yet.

The event will be held tentatively on the 18 or 25th of June. Those interested can contact me at a later date. I will say when don't worry. This is one event I'll definately blog about. For now, ciao!

Decisions, decisions..

2010-01-13T15:53:00.002+08:00

Finally sent in my JAE application after staring blankly into the computer screen for 10 full minutes until the system logged me out. Hah. Anyway, here's what I submitted. I changed it a little.

1st Choice : Meridian Junior College (Arts)
2nd Choice : St. Andrews Junior College (Arts)
3rd Choice : Nanyang Junior College (Arts)
4th Choice : Catholic Junior College (Arts)
5th Choice : Human Resource Management with Applied Psychology (SP)
6th Choice : Mass Communication (NP)
7th Choice : Business Studies (NP)
8th Choice : Communications & Media Management (TP)
9th Choice : Advertising & Public Relations (NP)
10th Choice : Music & Audio Technology (SP)
11th Choice : Business/Marketing (TP)
12th Choice : Hospitality & Tourism Management (TP)

Yep.. So that's that. All $7 worth. I'm not spending another $10 to amend!

JAE choices

2010-01-13T00:25:00.004+08:00

Okay, so I've more or less finalised my list. I'll be going to MJC Open House later today so if the open house doesn't change my mind about any of my choices then this shall be the list I will be submitting tonight.

1st Choice : Meridian Junior College (Arts)
2nd Choice : St. Andrew's Junior College (Arts)
3rd Choice : Catholic Junior College (Arts)
4th Choice : Human Resource Management with Applied Psychology (Singapore Poly)
5th Choice : Mass Communications (Ngee Ann Poly)
6th Choice : Millennia Institute (Commerce)
7th Choice : Business Studies (Ngee Ann Poly)
8th Choice : Communications and Media Management (Temasek Poly)
9th Choice : Advertising and Public Relations (Ngee Ann Poly)
10th Choice : Music and Audio Technology (Singapore Poly)
11th Choice : Business Study Grouping- Business/Marketing (Temasek Poly)
12th Choice : Hospitality and Tourism Management (Temasek Poly)

Yep. So these are my choices. I'm hoping for my first three choices. My father is still quite insistant on talking to the pastor on getting me into ACJC. Now, if I had taken up the VP of Payar Lebar Methodist Girl's offer to transfer there at the end of sec 1 I would have no problem getting in at all as I would be affiliated. But hey, I'm satisfied with how I have done and my choices. So that's that. Whatever result I get on the 27th, I'll be happy with it.

I'm through with all this s''t. Time to turn the car around..

2010-01-12T19:28:00.004+08:00

It matters not wherther she lives next door, halfway around the world or 1146 miles from here. It hurts and it will continue to hurt for a long time. The way I feel is not some switch I can turn on and off as I please.

You know, he may read this but he probably won't but what the hell. It doesn't matter anyway. It's my blog and this is where I write about my thoughts and my feelings. So here goes..

For those who don't know the story... We broke up in the middle of my prelims. I guess to could say I initiated it. But even so, it hurt but my results were unaffected. In fact, they were the best I ever had in my whole secondary school life. After that, during the O'levels itself, I got a little bit distracted by the same person because of a single night's incident (Nothing dirty I assure you.) . It left me with no mood to study, angry and cold but somehow, I managed to get past all that, put my thinking into perspective and trudge ahead anyway. So, if I was able to do it during my prelims and then again during my O'levels. I see no reason why I can't do it again. With or without some major exam looming.

To him..

The whole reason why I wanted to meet you and talk it out with you so badly was because I had things I wanted to say to you. I wanted to tell you that despite you saying that you weren't going to get into a relationship until after NS, I was willing to wait and I did put a lot of thought into it. I wanted to tell you, no matter what happened, I wanted you to know that I could be the one for you to turn to about anything at all. Something joyful, sad or anything at all. That's how much I felt for you. I guess all that is just bull and void now isn't it? Getting it on with some girl you knew for less than ten days.

Maybe she's special, maybe she's something more. Whatever it is, I hope she is. If she wasn't then it's just plain humiliating for me. For you to choose someone so far away when I'm right here and how you moved on so fast when just a month before that you were telling me something totally different. I know, it's nobody's fault for falling in love. Which is why I'm not blaming you or her. Which is why I'm trying my best not to judge. I'm not angry at you. If it's anyone I'm mad at, it's me. You know, now I'm thinking, if I had told you all that that every night, would things have turned out different? Perhaps...

I'm not bitter, I'm just done.
_____________________________________________________

Will you just shut up already? I know what I'm getting into when I choose where I want to go.

During the O's, you kept saying that I'll end up in ITE and flunk the whole damn exam! When I said I wanted to enter polytechnic, you just had to critizise and find every excuse in the book why it is bad. You said that it's expensive, that it's not easy to go to University from there and a whole bunch of other reasons that I kind of agreed with. You tried convincing me I HAD to enter JC. Never once did you asked me why I said no every time. When I tried to explain, you didn't want to hear. So here's why. Again: I DIDN'T THINK I WOULD EVEN QUALIFY! You even went as far as to call me a bimbo. See that's you, and you call me tackless. Sorry, I learnt from the best.

Now after I get my results, I have 5 freaking As and one B. I can actually enter JC. Just like what you wanted. You're still not satisfied. You insisted that JC wasn't that place for me and that maybe I should rethink my decision to enter JC. WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!

From day one you refer to me as your 'investment', just like your beloved stock markets. How you expect returns and how I must be your 'ATM' in time to come. What the hell am I?! A damn cash cow?! Maybe it's about time you realise not everything is about money!

You keep saying that it's because you want me to be better than you. I scored better than you now and you're still ashamed of me. Could it be because I'm not your own. Maybe it's humiliating for some girl from China to have finally done something good. Something that goes against my 'Made In China' stereotyping? Or can you not stand the fact that maybe I might actually be good for something.

Whatever it is, I'm sick of it. I'm sick of feeling ashamed of myself. I'm tired of letting you bring me down as and when you like it. I'm so over giving in to you and letting you walk all over me and telling me what to do. That's it! I'm done!

OMFG...

2010-01-11T22:27:00.005+08:00

I think the picture is self explainatory..

(photo removed)
In case you wanted to know...

English Language, A1
Combined Humanities, A1
Mathematics, A2
Additional Mathematics, B3
Biology, A2
Science (Physics/Chemistry), A2
Chinese B, Merit

Top girl. WTF?!

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I'm not bitter, I'm just done with you.

2010-01-11T09:43:00.003+08:00

Five years down the road, I swear I'm not going to remember the guy who broke up with me then hooked up with me for one night and then then moved on to another girl in 20 seconds flat... ...

Maybe I'll laugh when it comes up in girl talk. About his new girl that lives 1146 miles or 1845 kilometers away (Yes, I checked.) In fact I think of it as a joke right now. Maybe it's because I don't know her. Then again, I'll never want to know her. Not in a million years. Which girl would want to? But whatever it is, it's over. Fini. Finis. Finito. I'm done, I'm through with him. I could find a replacement just as easily. I choose not to.

You don't die of a broken heart. You just wish you did.

-Marilyn Peterson.

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Well, today is the day. Judgement day. I've done done the studying, did the papers. Now all that's left is the results themselves. I can't go back to change my answers and I can't go back to study more. Whatever happens later, happens. I've already calculated the range of results I'll probably get.

At best --> L1R5, 14. L1R4, 10.

At worst--> L1R5, 17. L1R4, 12.

This is what I think I'll get for my raw score. Either way, I'll probably not be able to get into JC but have a pretty good score for poly. So I guess we all know where I'll probably end up now. Well, that's all for now. 4 and a quarter hours to go. Wish me luck!

If I don't need you..

2010-01-09T22:47:00.005+08:00

If you're gonna be there, be there.
If you're gonna stay, stay tonight.
Start living. Out with the old.
I'm all lit up, must be the good life.

I'll miss you guys!

New beginning?...

2010-01-08T21:59:00.003+08:00

So, I'm finally updating my blog. It's now 2010. It's kind of late but let's do new year resolutions.

10 resolutions for 2010.
1) Not be impulsive and get into a relationship just for the sake of being in one.
2) I will be completely honest with me, myself and I.
3) I WILL work hard! (Probably going to break this within a month of starting school.)
4) I will religiously eat my vitamins everyday. (Already broken.)
5) I will blog regularly. (Like once a month. Ha.)
6) I will control my mouth and my temper.
7) I will be thrifty. (Already broken.)
8) I will appreciate the things I have and the people I have around me.
9) I WILL learn POA. (Must be done before I start school.)
10) I will do my best to keep to my resolutions.

2010 means I'll be 17. I'll be going on to either JC or poly. Probably the latter. Whatever it may be, I'm ready to take it on and be damn right serious about it. I'm no longer a child and so I should act like the young adult I am in order to be treated that way.

2010 aside, results will be out on Monday. I'm starting to second guess how confident I felt about the good papers and regret not doing more for the rest. I don't expect me to rest easy on Sunday.

Well, that's all. Really tired right now. Shall do a proper post... soon. Ha.

Busy, busy busy!!!

2009-11-11T16:29:00.002+08:00

Hey guys, it's been a really long time since I last did a proper post. Well, the O's are practically over so I'm out of excuses to not blog. Anyway, I'll still be busy. Just not with studying. With what then? For starters, a christmas party, a part time job, the sec one orientation camp, lottsa outings with the girls and hanging out with the guys.

I've already promised to help out at the Eunos CC as a commitee member in an upcoming christmas party the Eunos YEC and RC are organising. I'll be attenting the first meeting this saturday. Got to get my lazy ass up in time for it. Well, after the christmas party the Shining Stars held last year, this one should be a walk in the park especially since I doubt they'll give me some job with huge responsibility like last year. The best part? I don't have to travel all the way to Tiong Bahru every freaking day this time!! Yes, I'm excited. The thing is, I don't know anyone else in the commitee. (The BNSS SLC isn't involved this time.) Kinda scary especially for someone like me who isn't very sociable. I guess there's a first time for everything. Well, wish me luck guys!

Well, now that the O's are over (Don't expect as blog post about it. I never want to hear about it again!), I need my social life back! And what better way than having a class BBQ? Expect pictures, pictures and MORE PICTURES! (If I'm not too lazy to blog, that is. Heh..) Besides that, 'll be spending lots of time (and money) with my girlfriends an boyfriends. So that explains my need for a part time job. Currently job hunting. If anyone knows of a pretty good job, please please please tell me. Thanks!

The 2010 sec one orientation camp? Well, I'm just going to help out there as a facilitator. Mostly to make up for the fact that I wasn't there at this year's camp. (I was at the Adam Khoo workshop.) Hopefully, next year's batch of sec ones would be well behaved and quiet. Oh, who am I kidding? They're going to be rowdy, noisy, vulgar and everythig else in between but I'm still going anyway.

Got to get back to studying. Bio MCQ and CL'B exams tomorrow. Seriously, who studies for CL'B exams? Not me. I'm onl doing bio. Ciao!

P.S. Where would you want to be if the world really ended in December 2012? (Sorry, just had to ask.)

Straight through my heart.

2009-11-10T21:51:00.002+08:00

You always show up too late,
Drive me totally insane.
You never tell me what you think,
And never say what you mean.

So I tore you out of my heart,
And cleared you out of my head.

Now tell me how you got here under my skin.
You come around and I can't pull away.
And there's just no use trying to say goodbye again
'cause I just can't be with or without you

the coldest war.

2009-09-19T14:14:00.003+08:00

what are you fighting for?
What's the point if you win the battle but lose the war?
You're both not backing down and I stand in disbelief
How you exchanges can seem so deafening.

What are you fighting for?
Maybe if you see it how I do
You just might see this war is uncalled for.
But still, no one is backing down.

Broken hearts and torn up letters.

2009-09-11T15:00:00.001+08:00

I don't want to think about it.
I don't want to talk about it.
I don't want to dream about it.

I don't want to hear "I'm sorry".
I don't want sympathy.
I don't want to feel.

I don't want to remember.
I don't want to recall promises.
I don't want to cry about it.
I don't want to mop about it.
Because it's over and that's all there is to it.

goodbye.
That's the word for it.
It should mean get up and get on with your life
cause that's the only thing to do.
Upgrade.
Cause that's what I'm going to do.
He'll be sorry then.
They all end up that way.

What doesn't kill me will only make me stronger.

birthday wishes.

2009-09-07T18:28:00.002+08:00

Hey guys! Finally back. Thanks all who wished me a happy birthday! Talking about my birthday, Sara says she has my present from xinyi, Huijuan and her currently sitting in her house and that she'll only give it to me on 15th Oct. Nothing wrong with that ya. It was just the way she said it. Makes it seem like it's something bad. Should I be scared?

Anyway, just came online to tell all your lil' peeps that I bought KIMCHI!!! -drools-
I'm going to have a really nice time tonight eating kimchi and watching house. That obnoxious old man. lol.

KIMCHI = MAD LOVES!!!!

My life is mundane and unexciting.

2009-08-27T18:43:00.003+08:00

My life is boring, my blog is dead.
I have no pictures to show and nothing to be said.
In other words, my life is like this..
Study, eat, do homework, sleep, go to school, shit, revise, sleep.. etc...

You can pretty much guess the cycle. The only thing that's going to break it will be my prelims. And after that, this will be my facinating life for the next three months...

Study, go to school, eat (+ revise), Do homework, Do TYS, Sleep (-3 hours)... etc..
You can continue the rest.

Fun eh? I can't wait till I get my life back.
Birthdays are meant to be celebrated but no.. I'm going to be studying for some exam on both possible dates. Great!

P.S. -ahem- Goh Hui Juan still owes me a present from last year. So I shall gladly receive two from her this year! xD

Life as a Senior in Bedok North is all work and no play indeed.

2009-08-17T22:40:00.002+08:00

Okay, so after a long unforgiveable haitus, I'm finally going to do a proper blog post. So basically, I've been busy studying. Surprised I was actually doing something meaningful? Well, I never fail to surprise. Sometimes, I even surprise myself. xD

Anyway, day by day, all my teachers except Mdm Wong are turning into terrifying and utterly loathsome slavedrivers, What happened to the good ol' Miss Lenny? Who kidnapped her and replaced her with this cheap knockoff that only looks like her?! No one is my class would bet on what would be the first thing she'll do the minute she steps in for you next lesson. Probably, no definatly, without a doubt she'll nag. The only thing that's unpredictable is the duration of her nagging session. That's only for bio. All the other teachers have their own form of torture. I swear before becoming teachers they all went on a crash course on torture! Talking about teachers and school work, I have a full bio mock exam and a chemistry mock exam on thursday. Both subjects require much space in my temporary hard disk! -groans- These teachers are trying to kill us!

Enough said about teachers and test. Let's move on to a slightly happier topic- O'Level English Oral. Usually, I would be jumping for joy if someone were to tell me I have an English oral this Friday but not this time. Why? Mainly because it's part of this huge scary concept otherwise known as the GCE O'Level exam. Looking back, I think I said something like this about my PSLE too. Anyway, I will not be putting myself through another one of these GCE examinations. Namely, the A'Levels. MY poor heart wouldn't be able to take it.

I guess that's pretty wordy. Even by my past standards. Anyway, gotta get back to studying. Ciao!

A love a lot like winter..

2009-08-14T18:00:00.000+08:00

..I'm frightened, and you're indifferent..

..You seem miles away.

Are you even here?..

..Do I still have your heart?

I can't feel you with me..

..I need a reason to stay.

If you don't want me to,

then there's no point of me holding on..

..You're getting careless with my heart..

..The minute I look away,

you could be gone..

..Was it something I did,

something I said,

or was it always this way?..

..I don't think I know you anymore..

..I'm hoping for the best

but expecting the worst.

Are you going to drop the bomb or not?..

P.S. I'm sorry Sara for being a total asshole today.
So much that you had to personally drag me home.
But thanks ya? :)

Can you hear me screaming out your name?

2009-08-13T17:49:00.003+08:00

just listen to the words I say
This is not a game I play
With just any guy
It's no use to lose your way,
Just keep me in your arms baby.

Don't be careless with my heart
When my breath, it starts to shake
I'm not too delicate to love
But I'm not too delicate to break.

Can you hear me just screaming out your name?

2009-08-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

I'll just bite my lip and hold my tongue.
Maybe even let it pass
Simply because it's okay
But I can't promise you I'm alright.

2009-08-12T18:38:00.000+08:00
I saw two full grown men fight outside Kemangan MRT station today. Oh, and I when I say fight, I meant both physically and verbally. One guy nearly fell off the ledge but he didn't so when the other man fell to the ground he started kicking him. I would have probably found this hilarious under other circumstances but not when one of them almost hit me in the process of attacking the other. -.- Gosh!

2009-08-06T18:38:00.002+08:00
To Xavier:
Happy Second Month Baby!
It's alright if you can't spend as much time with me as before.
I know things are getting tough but I'm sure we'll make it through this.
I promise I'll be here no matter what.
So don't give up on me because I haven't given up on you.
I love you.

2009-07-30T17:29:00.003+08:00
THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO TIEW XINYI WHO IS ANYTHING BUT ADORABLE, CUDDLY AND LOVABLE.

Sorry Xinyi, but that's the truth. ;p

p.s. I won't be updating my blog at all until I get my inspiration back which would be sometime after my o'levels. Or maybe I'll just update when I feel like it.

p.p.s. Goodbye world. I'm going to attempt suicide before my mother kills me instead. >.<

2009-07-08T17:56:00.004+08:00
Hey guys, it's been some time since I last updated. Mostly because I was never online long enough to. Excuses excuses. Ya, I know.
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I had 8 freaking periods dedicated to Maths today!!
That means, 4 hours of pure Amaths and Emaths. Two sessions, two hours long. My brain hurts.
Wow, if they keep this up, the school will start to see a trend in absentees every Wednesday.
Anyway, what I really want to tell the world, is that I had tofu for breakfast. Yup! That soft, smooth and silken beancurd! Yummy. :)
Okay, so now I'm at a point where I'm crapping so much I have no idea what the heck I'm typing. So I'll spare all of you with these new vids that aren't actually new. >.< _____________________________________
Hey, XinYi, remember how you promised to get stoned with me after the O's? Wanna try one of these hangover cures after? xD

Xiaxue's Guide To Life: EP37 - Hangover Cures

Did I post this up before? I don't think I've posted this up before. I might have though. Oh, screw it! Just watch the damn vid.

Chick vs. Dick: EP34 - The Impersonation Challenge

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Xavier:
Hey baby, one month passed so quickly.
I still can't believe you're mine.
What I'm trying to say is,
I love you.
& I'm excited about this journey
simply because I know I'll have you by my side.
Happy first month anniversary~♥

2009-06-29T18:47:00.002+08:00
Argh! I knew listening to this was a bad idea! Now it's stuck in my head. >.<

The Llama Song

2009-06-28T13:30:00.002+08:00

Gosh. OMFG! What's wrong with you?!
First when you were seventeen,
and now when you're twenty-two.
Don't you learn? What are you trying to prove?
Surely you should have known where all that leads to.
Why weren't you thinking?
Are you proud of yourself?
Why do you have to be such a screw up?!
How are you going to support them now?
No job, no proper qualification.
Heck, I'm never going to be like you!

2009-06-15T12:13:00.003+08:00
Gossip Girl and Ben & Jerry's. What could possibly be better? :)

2009-06-14T22:31:00.002+08:00
THIS POST IS SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO KIMMY AND XINYI WHO WON'T STOP BUGGING ME TO UPDATE!!

Hey, I'm finally here to update! So the thing is, I'm stuck alone at home till tuesday. My parents went to Malaysia again. Baby came over in the afternoon but I'm probably going to be alone for the rest of the time with only my books to keep me company.

Oh, a girl from my level, in my school is down with N1H1. From what I've read, she's allowed to come back to school. Scary. My school's probably going to go crazy with the temperature taking again. She came to school on the 10th and 11th. I clearly remember walking pass her while she was waiting for the BNSS idol auditions. I guess that's not considered close contact but still... Ohwell, I'm not exactly her fan but I hope she gets well soon anyway.
Anyway, full story at http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/435851/1/.html

Gotta go. Ciao peeps!

2009-06-07T14:16:00.002+08:00
Ok, I'm back to update!
psst. As you are a loyal rader of my almost dead blog,
I though I should share with you this little piece of information.
Evelyn's really high and o6o6'o9 a special date. Figured anything out yet?
No? Oh, too bad. :p
Ciao suckers!

2009-05-28T20:21:00.004+08:00
Okay, so I owe the KSEXY clique this. Best get it over with before they come after my head. XD

Sara
I've known her since sec 2.
Thanks to her short stint in the choir.
She is spastic. Just so you know.
She is best avoided in the early morning
when her spastic levels are at all-time highs.
Highly toxic when taken with Kimberly.
She absolubly loves me.
& I love her back. :)

Kimberly
Been my friend since sec 1.
Won't forget the projects we've done together.
Where we end up laughing like nobody's business.
She says alot of things that make me laugh.
She's probably the most daring among the lot.
She loves me lots and I love her too. :)

Xinyi
Known her since sec 1.
Perfectly random.
She'll be so alone if not for me. XD
She loves me as much as she loves food and her teddy bears
& I love her equally much too. :)

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Ok, now I'm gonna compare what my lovely dears have said about me with one another and add my own comments. Whee.... XD

From Xinyi's blog...
Ahh... My beloved ikan-bilis! :D I look forward to seeing you prance around in a bikini soon, k? [Okay! XD] xD Just kidding. Hahahaas Hmm. Evelyn is a sensible girl who has been through alot of ups and downs in her life, so she's a really grounded person, I guess. [Hmm.. interesting] She knows alot of nice songs too. [Oh, so you only love me for my nice songs. Now I'm heart broken! ):] ;p I love Evelyn as much as I love ~~biting the heads off~~ gummy bears and teddy bears and drooling over pictures of smexaye cars. [Well, at least I don't fall under the catergory of 'asshole' which would be the worst insult in the world. xD] :3 Uhh.. Scratch that drooling part, but yeah, it's just just metaphorically.

From Sara's blog..
The 'E' of the clique. The one that teachers adore. [Nope! I'm pretty sure Mrs Fong's not exactly fond of me. Or at least she won't be once she finds out her name's the new 'F' word. :x] The goody, goody girl (oh well, at least in school. ;3) [Yup, only in school! ;)] :D She loves the wierdest things. Such as, one night stands, flirting and bikinis. [How is flirting and bikinis wierd? And I don't exactly love them.]But well, I love her all the same. [You'd better! xD] ;3 Like Xinyi, she has had some really rough patches and I'm so so so sorry I was in Canada at that time. [I *ahem* forgive *ahem* you. lol] She's always there to push me back to reality whenever I drift too far from it. She is always there when I'm in need of a shoulder to cry on, literally. [School blouse.With councillor stripes. Wet. At the shoulder. *ahem* >.<] She has the most experience when it comes to relationships and is usually the one with the most rational advice. She's a good friend and I love her.

From Kimmii's blog..
Evelyn is the E in the KSEXY clique.
I knew her from Sec 1 and was kinda my best friend from Sec 1.
Evelyn's the more rational one in the group and gives us more matured advice.
She's the more "guai kia-ish" of the clique and has never got into any trouble with the school authorities as far as I know.
Seriously, NEVER.
Lols.
Sara and I don't really call her sister.. Doesn't seem right.
Instead, she's given the title of 'aunt agony' or something.
Ah.. Not really sure about the title =/
Yea, we love her as Auntie Evelyn!
Wahaha ;3
[... I have nothing to say about kimmy's post. Damnit! Kimmy Kay Killed the Kick of this (K)post. :x]

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Ahh... Wasn't that fun? XD

2009-05-23T23:47:00.002+08:00

I don't know why, when or how but some time this week, I woke up and realising he's no longer on my mind. I found that I didn't like/love/hate/dislike him anymore. (I have strange relationships with people.) And I know it's taken me pretty long but here goes.. I'm finally moving on. I'm finally going to start over. I'm going to feel the thrills, the fears and the excitment of living without some form of a memory holding me back. No more thinking that I should be feeling down 24/7.

So she walked down the street
dressed, looking and feeling her best
knowing she made heads turn
and basked in every minute of it.

2009-05-22T15:23:00.002+08:00
I need inspiration to update this blog.

...

...

Oh look, I just did! Yay me! -.-

2009-05-09T22:42:00.001+08:00
Whee..
Finally pursuaded my mom to get me a bikini.
See... I CAN be pursuasive. XD
Okay, that's all I have to report. Ciao. lottsa lurve!

2009-05-08T19:45:00.000+08:00
I miss the sound of your voice
Loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet,
Perfect words that you said.

2009-05-07T23:24:00.001+08:00
It should be a crime to make you grow up at sixteen. Scrap that, make it fifteen.

gay, anti-gay, pro-gay?

2009-05-07T19:21:00.003+08:00

I am an anti-gay activist!

Okay, maybe not an active 'activist'.

Fine, fine... I'm not an activist either. I just said it 'coz it's sounds more professional and you'll probably swallow whatever nonsense I'm about to write without geting indigestion.

I believe in anti-gay laws because pro-gay (did I seriously just type that? o.o)is just unfair to women. Imagine.. A girl sees this guys she really likes, goes up to him, chat with him the whole damn night and at the end of it, finds out he's gay. What a bummer. I don't get it. Why do some guys wants to get with some other guy who's probably really hairy in wierd places and will probably snore through the night?! I mean next to getting a girl, with smooth skin, luxurious hair and a soothing voice(If I were a guy I would pick the girl. No doubt about that! Eh.. And I'm still straight even though I described girls like that.), they choose furry hairballs that snore that is of course unless your girl's a furry hairball that squeaks. Maybe then, you're entitled to a choice. Then again, female furry hairballs probably already don't have guys. So anyway, why would a guy choose a guy over a girl. Beats me. It's dampens my mood even more to say that most gay men are hot. See, see.... unfair! Guys date the guys and the girls are left with second best. Damn...

Ohwell, this was fun. Let's continue this another day. Ciao! XD

2009-04-29T16:48:00.002+08:00
flirting = good.
Fake flirting = bad.
Slutty flirting = OMG, put that stuff away already.

~lalala... XD

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~~MYE Day 3~~ down
English Compre and Maths paper two's finally over.
But Mrs Fong mentioned that many people in our class did badly for SS.
Damn...
Please let it not be me. >.<
No exams tomorrow. Great!
(I meant that in a totally not sarcastic way.)

Dad's still at SGH. He's now hooked up to some machine.
Seriously, they can't find what's wrong with him?

Anyway, gotta go back to completing homework. Ciao!

2009-04-28T18:16:00.003+08:00
~~MYE Day 2~~ down
S.S. is finally over. Hopefully I did well.
Anyway, so it's English Compre and Maths paper 2 tomorrow. Yay. -.-

Anyway, was about to have breakfast when I got an sms from Kimmy who was stuck at Mac and it was raining heavily. She somehow got me to leave my perfectly dry house in my perfectly dry underwear into the darn wet weather which cost me my perfectly dry underwear to turn into soggy, wet and uncomfortable underwear. dang.. Anyway, I had my breakfast at Mac so I'm ultimately satisfied. ( Despite my soggy, wet and uncomfortable underwear. >.<)

Had CLB oral after school. Met Sara's special friend and by then, Sara and Kimmy probably had soggy wet uncomfortable underwear too! Yay me! >.<

Ahh... underwear, what would we do without it? Sweet underwear... Ahh... XD

I'm trading up your old dirty shirt
for lipsticks and mini skirts.

Mug Fest!

2009-04-27T16:03:00.005+08:00
& it's taken me this long baby,
but I've figured you out.
So when you drive back round this turn again
we'll see who'll be turning who out.

Daddy's still at SGH. 3 senior doctors and they can't tell what the hell is wrong with him.
Gosh. -.-

Oh ya, and I've created facebook. The boredom is killing me. So add me if I haven't added you.

Gosh, I can't wait to leave this school and start dating more matured poly guys. You know what, on second though, I take that back.
Maybe I should address this issue on my next blog entry. 'Why I share a love-hate relationship with all human carriers of the XY chromosome with an extra piece of flesh several inches long.'
Hmm.. that would be interesting.

~~MYE Day One~~ down
Compo was okay. Social Studies tomorrow. Kinda scared. So, off I go to mug mug mug!
See ya peeps in school tomorrow.

Oh lovely examinations, hail to thee.
Mushy brains is what you make of me.

Best, good, bad and the worst

2009-04-24T22:19:00.003+08:00

Daddy called saying he's waiting for results from the cardiologist.
'Cardiologist' doesn't sound like a good sign.
I mean, if he's fine they wouldn't have refered him to the cardiologist right?
He's staying at the hospital tonight and mummy will be there with him.
So it's just me all alone at home now.
I'm just going to continue to cross my fingers and hope for the best.

2009-04-24T20:21:00.003+08:00

Received bad news on the way home from geog lesson.
Daddy had three blackouts today so mummy's sending him to SGH.
To worried to comment.
Just hope everything turns out alright.
I don't know what I'll do without you.

2009-04-23T18:04:00.003+08:00
Study break has started. That means no more rushing around before 6.45 every friday just to make sure I reach school before 7. That also means exams are coming. The calendar supports my claim. It's say WTF! 4 dats to Mid Year -.- diediedie... Must choing this post and change to 'nerd' mode.

2009-04-23T16:58:00.005+08:00

Anyone under 13, please don't read. Yes, I'm talking about you, Jolynn.

Wear these clothes, walk this way, do exactly what they say
It's your life, but they're way, follow me it's all the same

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That's it... I've figured.
You're not desperate. & don't blame it on your hormones.
You're just daft. Really dumb.
If you were desperate, you would have stuck around no matter what.
If you were stupid, you would go on and spoil the good thing we had.
And... you choose the latter. So good for you.
Kinda glad you chose not to stick around now.
Yay me! boo you.
Desperate would be me. Back then.
Just wanting you to stay. heh...
Hormones would be me...
Ditto for puppy love.

You wondering how poly would be?
Why don't you just cut the crap and say it.
You're not wondering how good the facilities are.
Or if the lectures will be good.
You just really want to know how many hot girl are there.
So just stop it. 'Cause now thinking about you makes me want to hurl.

FUCK YOU.

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What is it with some guys?
It's okay to flirt. Why?
"Because I'm a guy."
Fuck you.
So it's an excuse then is it? Your gender?
So I can say,
"I let myself get my heart broken time and time again and still put that bloody smile back on my face." Why?
"Cause I'm a girl."
Oh fuck you all.

I guess it ain't so bad, it was the best time that I never had
It's my move, my say, I think I like it this way

2009-04-13T19:26:00.005+08:00

Falling in love consist of merely uncorking the imagination and bottling the common-sense.
-Helen Rowland

THISBLOGPOSTISDEDICATEDTO
XINYICAUSESHEASKEDFORIT-.-
People need inspiration to blog alright?
I know how you want more of me but a work of art takes patience time and patience. >.<

Stupid la. I was running my shuttle run today. Guess what? I fell down. After I passed the finished line. Then I sat there for a good ten seconds laughing my ass off. Didn't notice the pain in my left foot until I started walking to the next station. Yay! -.- Still hurts damnit! :'(

After school, when to techview with Sara and Kimmy. Read from my spanking new quote book to them. Then started talking about stuff. Shall not post about it coz it's not PG. >.<>

Of course, once you've been been around the block a couple of times,
you'll find unconditional love is a mirage.

2009-04-06T18:26:00.001+08:00

There's an awful lot of breathing
but I can hardly move.

I think I'm scared,
this once in my life.

2009-04-06T17:10:00.006+08:00
To all the rainy days and monday blues...

For all past memories gone...
For all the days spent doing nothing at all...

Okay, enough with the emoing. Here's some new vids to watch.

The Shan and Rozz Show: EP2 - Dr. Date
Shan and Rozz meet a professional date doctor who helps guys score with the ladies. Dr. Date tries to get Rozz's phone number, and Shan picks up some dating tips along the way.
(I guess these tips could be helpful for guys?)

Chick vs. Dick: EP33 - The Courage Challenge
Who's braver when it comes to eating stuff like spiders, locusts, and silkworms? Will they do it or will they chicken out? Vote for who you think did better!
(Do not! I repeat! Do not watch while having dinner!)
Xiaxue's Guide To Life: EP44 - Social Etiquette
Xiaxue gets some tips on social etiquette
( These could come in handy, I guess..)

P.S. Sara, I am not dating a teacher ever. At least not while I'm studying. Even if he's just three years older. Time to get wierd images out of your head.

P.P.S Kimmy, Stop it with the pelvis Thrust. -.-

2009-04-02T16:11:00.006+08:00

Mothballs- That all I can smell at home right now. Why is it called mothballs anyway? Mom says it to drive moths away. But she didn't put up a very good argument. So, not convincing enough for me.

Anyway, school. Mr Lai has gone off to start NS. How sad. I feel wierd calling someone barely 3 years older than me Mr something. Let's just call him Desmond. XD
I'm still not convinced 'it' is a woman. So I'm going to continue calling 'it' it. Geddit?
& crap! Mid year exam starts in three weeks! Time to chiong.
Oh ya, from now on, I'm Piggy, Sara is Zhu, Kimmy is BaJie and Rosi's Barbie. Don't ask, long story. I can write an entire novel with that.

Best question answered by a teacher this week (So far.) :
Why is the reproductive system of a woman so difficult to memorise?( some boy in my class)
'Coz women are complex creatures. ( Miss Lenny) >.<

S is for the simple need
E is for the Ecstasy
X is just to mark the spot
'cuz that's what you really want
Whee... :)

2009-03-30T16:16:00.001+08:00
Time is a teacher who's taught me well
The loser is the one who cries
And when you've cried like a baby and you've hurt like hell
You know the devil by the look in his eyes

2009-03-27T21:44:00.006+08:00
Realised my blog is super boring. I wouldn't even read it if I were you. -.-
Gotta get some pics, vids, crap will also do. >.<

We have a new temporary Chemistry teacher who has a short tongue and speaks wierd, Mr Low. And there's a teacher who dresses like a guy and accessorises like a woman. Yup. People in my class have been referring to her( yup, 'it' is a 'she'. That is according to Miss Oh.) as 'IT' since we couldn't come to a conclusion. >.<

Anyway, I wasted 2 perfectly good hours today. Shouldn't have gone for the Speech day rehersal at all. All of the councillors were told to come and all we did was sit on the chair and talk. -.-

Oh, and Pat Jon was carrying a dead sucker fish from a science project with him just now. PJ, Miss Faizal and his group mates were supposed to bury it somewhere in the school after the rehersal. So that fish is going to haunt all the puddles around our school? I guess we'll see. (".)

And tomorrow's speech day duty + fiesta + staying back to redo missing physics praticals -groans- Well, at least I find Physics praticals easy. Luckily they're not Chemistry praticals.

Well, that's alot to get through. So here's two vids to watch. :)

Chick vs. Dick: EP32 - The Prata Challenge
Paul and Kay Kay have a go at making crispy chocolate roti prata, but they soon find out that it isn't as easy as it looks!

Xiaxue's Guide To Life: EP43 - Online Dating
Xiaxue teaches you how to find love on the Internet, and shows you her very own personal dating video! (Well, don't take this seriously and come complaining to me. 'Coz I'm telling you now, it probably won't work. :x)

The Shan and Rozz Show: EP1 - CLEO Bachelors
Shan and Rozz drop by the CLEO 50 Most Eligible Bachelors competition to chat with some of the guys. Shan faces off with the winner in an abs showdown, while Rozz just wants to take him home. (The winner, not Shan) (Hey Sara, remember the cleo mag I brought to one of Mrs Fong's night lessons? Looks like my hot guy ended up willing 1st place. ;p)

亲爱的我的温柔你怎么记得住,
从来没有在你面前哭...

2009-03-25T16:41:00.003+08:00
Well, I'm bored and Sara made me do this. Grr...

Write the names of 16 friends you can think in ur mind.And then answer the questions, say you're guessing if you don't know.But at least guess on all of them.After doing this, tag 21 unlucky friends to do the same thing.

1.Rosiana
2.ChenHua
3.ChuenHeng
4.Genevive
5.Sara
6.LeeCheng
7.WeiSheng
8.YuSheng
9.Zaman
10.Elonah
11.YongFu
12.Jolynn
13.WeiJie
14.XinYi
15.Chanel
16.JianYu
17.ZhiXiong
18. ShengHui
19. Kimmy
20.HuiJuan
21.RuiQin

Erm.. Names are in no particular order. That was done on purpose.

1. How do i meet 7? (WeiSheng)
School?

2. What would u do if u and 15 had never met? (Chanel)
Hmm... Hainan trip would have been boring.

3. What would you do if 20 and 1 dated? (HuiJuan and Rosiana)
Erm... I don't see it happening in the near future. Probably not ever?

4. Have u seen 17 cried? (ZhiXiong)
Awkward question. But no.

5. Would 4 & 16 Make a good couple? (Genevive and JianYu)
Erm.. no? They don't know each other. & it would be plain wierd.

6. Do u think 11 is attractive? (YongFu)

-Cough-

It would be safest for me to say that I have no comment.

>.<>.< 8. When the last time i talked to 9? (Zaman) A long time ago? :x

9. What language does 8 speaks? (YuSheng)
English, Chinese, Singlish, Fishish? XD

10. Who is 13 going out with? (WeiJie)
Try asking him maybe?

11. Would u ever date with 17? (ZhiXiong)
I don't really have to answer this do I?

12. Where does 18 live? (ShengHui)
I'm not a stalker. So I don't know. o.o

13. What is the best thing about 4? (Genevive)
I can talk to her about anything.

14. What would u like to tell 10 right now? (Elonah)
Please, I'm begging you. No more hugs!

15. What's the best thing about 20? (HuiJuan)
She's my best BUDDY!

16. Have i ever kiss 2?(ChenHua)
.. -.- Eh. No.

17. What is the best memory you have of 5? (Sara)
Letmesee... This was this time when.. and this other time we... and then she..

There's alot.

18. When is the next time u will be seeing 4? (Genevive)
I have no idea. Soon, I hope.

19. How is 7 different from 6? (WeiSheng, LeeCheng)
Erm.. Let me tell you what's similar. It's easier.

They're both boys. The similiarities more or less stops there.

20. Is 2 pretty? (ChenHua)
-cough-Ya, very -cough- pretty. >.< 21. What is the first impression of 15? (Chanel) Very bubbly. 22. How did you meet 3? (ChuenHeng) School. 23. Is 15 one of your best friends? (Chanel) Not quite. 24. Do u hate 12? (Jolynn) She's my cousin.

She irritates me and I irritate her.

It's our job but we'll never hate each other.

25. Have u seen 18 in the last month? (ShengHui)
No. Couldn't make it for the last get-together. :(

26. When was the last time u saw 16? (JianYu)
Yesterday. I seriously didn't see him for the whole day. :x

27. Have u been to 5's house? (Sara)
No. Funny. We were talking about it just now. & the clique's at her place now.

28. When's is the next time u will see 10? (Elonah)
Tomorrow probably.

29. Are u close to 11? (YongFu)
Depends. He hasn't been returning my smses.

-cough-

30. Have u been to the movie with 4? (Genevive)
Sadly, no.

31. Have u gotten any trouble with 8? (YuSheng)
Nah.

32. Will u give 19 a hug? (Kimmy)
Yup. Hug her every day.

33. When have u lied to 3? (ChuenHeng)
Who are you? my mother?! o.o

34. Is 11 good in socializing? (YongFu)
Hmm.. I'm not sure.

I'm stuch with the idea that the piano is his best friend.

35. Do u have know a secret about 8? (YuSheng)
Yup... He's a -lowers voice- pervert.

Oh wait, that's no secret. >.< 36. Describle the relationship between 12 & 18? (Jolynn and ShengHui) They don't know each other. Why?

Do you know something I don't? o.o

37. What's the best thing about ur friendship with 9? (Zaman)
He's my right chopstick, I'm his left. lol..

38. What's the worst thing about 6? (LeeCheng)
The fact that he's officially taller than me.

39. Have u ever have a crush with 12? (Jolynn)
Erm... SHE's my COUSIN. o.o

40. How long have u know 2? (ChenHua)
Since sec 1.

41. Does 11 Have any boyfriend or girlfriend? (YongFu)
No. Not that I know of.

42. Have u ever wanted to punch 1 in the face? (Rosiana)
No? o.o Why would I do that?

43. Has 21 meet ur parents (RuiQin)
Yup. Many times

44. How did you meet 11? (YongFu)
Suntertainment. Some carnival thingy.

45. Did u ever accidently physically hurt 3? (ChuenHeng)
Erm... No?

46. Do u live close to 7? (WeiSheng)
Nah.

47. What's 8 Favourite food? (YuSheng)
Ask him maybe? o.o

48. What kind of car does 1 have?(Rosiana)
Last time I checked, she doesn't drive.

49. Have u travelled anyway with 9? (Zaman)
Yup! Hainan!! XD

50. If 14 have $100, what would he/she spend it on? (XinYi)
Easy one! Food. XD

Phew, finally done! Yay, I'm free!!!!

2009-03-23T15:47:00.002+08:00

Funny how everyone wants time to stop so badly. Sara, Kimmy, Rosi and I were talking about it at PE today. I wanted time to stop so much yesterday just so that I could pretend today wouldn't come so I would not have to face facts. Anyway, I'm ranting.

Well, it's the first day of school. So it's pretty much back to business with everything. So now what? Back to studying like our lives depend on it. Kinda true since it's the O'level year and O'level affects your future and blah blah blah. I have nothing much to talk about so lets leave it at that.

I seem to have lost my inspiration somewhere along the way.

2009-03-19T16:04:00.005+08:00

Boys are Jerks. & that's jerks with a capital 'J'. Some a little more than others, some a little less. But they're still jerks. They have all been some point in their life. It's embeded into their DNA.

My new thesis is that all guys have an extra gene that makes them jerks. The other thing about it is that it reduces the average male lifespan. Which is why the average female lives longer than the average male.

Yup. I should totally win a nobel prize for this. Jerks..

2009-03-14T13:54:00.002+08:00
Gawd! What is it? 31weeks till O's? Gosh. & my results are like whoa.. And not in the good way. Evelyn just doesn't fail english. Never. In. My. Entire. 15. Years. On. Earth. Anyway, this week's dedicated to everything related to studying. What can I say? I certainly don't like it. Who does?

Anyway, Ravin came back to school yesterday. Just to guai lan the teachers and students. But he had to leave soon after. I miss my seniors. That aside, Kimmy was having NPCC camp. Joined her group for a while after night lesson. Then joined Raiyan's in singing. >.<

I wished I had joined NPCC now. Too late to regret. I'm stepping down from CCA anyway.

Anyway, Ciao!

Once again Sara,
I'll rather die
than be a housewife and there's no why to it.

2009-03-09T17:13:00.002+08:00
Is it just me or do I have really horny friends? ".)
...

Yup, I have really horny friends.
:X

Warning! Horny post up ahead! Do not read or you'll be emotionally scarred for life!

I told you not to read didn't I? -.-
Anyway, about today,
After school, I went to techview with Sara, Rosi, Kimmy and Elonah.
Started talking about wierd stuff like...
Boys? Gays? Boys and their penises? o.o
Ya, if you don't want to know, don't ask.
...
On second thought, don't ask at all.
Actually, Elonah did most of the talking while the rest of us were laughing like retards.
Then she started telling us that chinese guys have small dicks. o.o
Suddenly, Rosi shouted over to Wee Keong who was seated some distance away from us.

"Wee Keong, don't be sad that you're so small".

He gave that really blur look then Elonah shouted "Your dick lar!" :x
So yup, once again for the record, I have horny friends.
_________________________________

Walking in the rain till you're soaked is fun. Maybe I'll fall ill.
Crazy is what crazy do,
crazy in love, crazy for you.

2009-03-05T17:05:00.006+08:00
Recently, Kimberly has kindly included me in one of her blog entries. I've decided to return the favour. I've traded up her old fashioned bio to how her resume would look like when she was applying for the position of being moi's lady-in-waiting. >.<
Name: Kimberly Ng
AKA (affectionally known as): Kimmy, Kimmykins, Kimmyberly. Kim
Gender: Female
Occupation: Student/ Stripper
Bio:
A hopeless non-virgin hongster,
laughing and being elated is done so often that it has been coded in her DNA.
She has an affinity with bubble tea as it always finds a way onto her clothes.
The little epiphanies she gets may seem queer and on some occasions,
a little kinky but you'll get used to it in time.
Such epiphanies usually led back to laughing and being elated.
She absolubly adores Evelyn and kisses her ass first thing every morning. >.<

Whee... I had fun! Maybe I'll do it again. Just about other people.
I'm already thinking about my next target! Muahahahaha!>.<

That was just the teaser, if you want to watch it, go to
http://www.clicknetwork.tv/watch.aspx?c=1&p=13
I can't embed it on my blog anymore cause it's now uploaded only on clicknetwork.tv not youtube anymore. :(

lyrics for the broken heart

2009-02-27T21:41:00.004+08:00

Girls...
Well, sometimes we just need something to get sad over.
Or at least I do...
So here goes... Lyrics for the broken heart
lol...
ya...

I can hear rain coming like a serenade of sound
- Life in Technicolour, Coldplay

I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
-All You Wanted, Michelle Branch

So please tell me why don't you come around no more
Cause right now I'm dying outside the door of your loving store
-The Game Of Love, Michelle Branch Feat. Santana

I remember the stupid things
The mood rings, the bracelets with the beads
Nickels and dimes, yours and mine
Did you cash in all your dreams?
You don't dream for me, no
You don't dream for me, no
But I still feel you pulsing like a sonar
From the days in the waves
-Never Let You Go, Third Eye Blind

I cannot believe the way I fell for it
I was a fool to buy all the lies you sold me
-Drip Drop, Vanessa Anne Hudgens

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew,
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold onto.
-Goodbye to you, Michelle Branch

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away...

...The things we did
The way we shared our fantasies
Just you and me
My friends, my love, my family
-Walk Away (Remember Me), Paula DeAnda Feat. The Dey

tell myself that i'll be fine without ya,
but i would die if i was not around ya,
and i can try to convince you i don't need to be with you,
but my only thoughts are thoughts about ya,
-Stuck With Each Other, Shontelle Feat. Akon

Gravity must have forgotten to pull me back to Earth

2009-02-25T17:04:00.003+08:00

Here's to the top most irritating song on my list that is stuck in my head. 'The DNA song' that we were forced to endure during Bio lesson by Lenny. Which my classmates happily turned into a sing-a-long session. Kudos to inventor of the DNA song. -.-

"Will you remember me?"
You ask me as I leave
"Remember what I said?"
Oh, how could I
Oh, how could I forget?

We're one mistake from being together
But let's not ask why it's not right
You won't be seventeen forever
And we can get away with this tonight......

Old habits die hard.
Don't say I didn't warn you I wasn't going to stay the same.

2009-02-21T13:16:00.002+08:00
Whee... So I'm home!
Had Chem and Physics this morning.
Then went to mac to study with ShiQi.
Sorry Kimmy, Sara and Rosi that I didn't join you guys at KFC to eat..
I just can't study around you guys 'coz I'm having too much fun.
I'll make it up to you kays? :)

Anyway, I got the Jack and Rai album I wanted so badly.
& no, I didn't go all the way to the esplanade.
Found it at gramaphone.
Lucky me! ;)
It's called ' In Stores Now! '
with the exclaimation mark and all.
Kinda wierd name for an album don't you think?
I guess it's part of the sales gimmick (Is that spelt right?)and all.
Ohoh! & I have, a new found respect for magnets.
Especially bar magnets. lol..

& I've found this site through nuff nang. I think it's pretty cool.
It's about the lives of these 4 friends and it's kinda like reading a blog.
So for those who like blog surfing and reading about other peoples' lives,
You'll enjoy this.
http://www.notsosecretlives.com/

You killed the situation,
but the situation ain't dead.

WB, E

2009-02-19T15:58:00.002+08:00

I've decided. I'm over what is over. It's his loss. Not mine.
I have no reason to be tripping and crying my heart out.
What happens after, well, happens. And that's that.
I got past this once, I'll get pass it once more.
Maybe a few more but heck, that's life.
& this's how things revolve around here.
I'm making a move on my life. So, E's back.
With an upgrade. The next time he see me,
he's going to be the one tripping. Not me.
Not any longer. 'Coz it's not worth my time anymore..

Past all that, I've decided I don't like Miss Faizal. I don't like the way she talks to my class like as if we're dumb. & her sarcasm is not appreciated thank-you very much. As much as I hate to, I'll admit that she's a better teacher than Mr Lau. Or maybe it's because I've alway been good at 'sound waves'. I remember most of my work from sec 2. So I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens.

P.S. I'm estatic that my grade are all improving greatly. Most of my test so far have been A's. So that's good. XD But then, I've failed/ almost failed english this term. Damn.. What's happening now?! Gosh!
We think you're a joke,
shove your hope where it don't shine.

2009-02-16T19:05:00.002+08:00
FYI, 'Dan' officially sucks, 'Serena' and 'Blair' are the best in the world!
ya? :)

Yay, I'm going to have so much fun at Ngee Ann I can't wait! ;p
I'ma have the time of my life!

2009-02-15T14:20:00.002+08:00
I've decided! Ngee Ann Poly's where I'm going to be in a year.
& I'll be doing one of these courses!
-Business Studies
-International Business
-Business & Social Enterprise
-Clean Energy Management

Nothing's going to make me change my mind!
Guess that means I'll be aiming for JC's cutoff.
Whee!!! Sec four is going to be so much fun filled with studying!!!
Yay!!!

2009-02-13T22:32:00.001+08:00

Hey Stephen- Taylor Swift

Hey Stephen, I know looks can be deceiving
But I know I saw a light in you
And as we walked we were talking
I didn't say half the things I wanted to

Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window
I'll be the one waiting there even when it's cold
Hey Stephen, boy, you might have me believing
I don't always have to be alone

'Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
Mmm, I can't help myself

Hey Stephen, I've been holding back this feeling
So I got some things to say to you
I've seen it all, so I thought
But I never seen nobody shine the way you do

The way you walk, way you talk, way you say my name
It's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change
Hey Stephen, why are people always leaving?
I think you and I should stay the same

'Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
Mmm, I can't help myself

They're dimming the street lights, you're perfect for me
Why aren't you here tonight?
I'm waiting alone now, so come on and come out
And pull me near and shine, shine, shine

Hey Stephen, I could give you fifty reasons
Why I should be the one you choose
All those other girls, well, they're beautiful
But would they write a song for you?

I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
Mmm, I can't help myself

If you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
Mmm, I can't help myself

Myself
Can't help myself
I can't help myself

I'm reverting back to happy. :)
& it's not for you.

2009-02-12T16:10:00.002+08:00
Mr Lau's not going to teach my class physics anymore.
He's being replaced with Ms Faizah. Whoever that is.
I probably won't miss him teaching but I'll miss him.
Ya, I know. I haven't even graduated yet.
But still.. :(
Today was his last official lesson with us.
He didn't even tell us until lesson was over.
Some people actually cried when he broke the news.
Haiz...

At least I'll still be able to see him around school.
So let's lighten the mood.
I'm so happy! I'm over PMS-ing.
lol... Yup, so I'm back to normal. XD
That probably means extra high though...
Anyway, I bet you can't find my music player!
Too bad! But I just realised something.
If you can't find the player, you can't pause the music to watch videos I put up.
Ohwell, too bad!!!

Oh, and if any of you lil' peeps go to the Esplanade by any chance,
tell me, kay?
I want to get a CD. By these two guys, Jack and Rai (pronounced as Ray/Rei)
It's only sold at the Esplanade giftshop.
What kind of logic is that? -.-
So anyway, tell me if you're going to the Esplanade!

Anyway, updates about from my super short hair.
I'm going to make having super-short ponytails the next big thing. XD
Nah. Not really. But I've got an almost non-existant ponytail now.
Enough said about my hair. lol...

anyway, Dawn's here, so gotta go! Ciao!

2009-02-09T17:36:00.006+08:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN RUI QIN!!!
OMGOMGOMG
I'm going to cry.
Argh!!!!
There goes my hair.
My hair is now f**king short.
I bet I can pass off as a boy.
I swear I'll cry.
Toopid hairdresser. T.T
Thank goodness phototaking was before I had it cut.
Nevermind... One month and it'll all be back.
To normal at least..
Wish everything in life was that easy...

I still miss you..
& what do I do now since thoughts of you
that refuse to evade me are turning to insomnia?
My defence is now paper-thin
from being tired of wishing you're still here.
Still, if I had my way,
I'll turn back time and make you change your mind.
Can it still work now?
You did something that messed me up good
and rendered me helpless.
& I can't do anything without being reminded of you.
I think I'm fine, I know I'm not.
But I won't hate you.
I never did. I can't..
I won't lie though,
I hate how you've got me feeling.
'Coz I can't do a thing to get out of this
& tears keep welling up,
but they never fall.
All in three month's time
I'll probably be much better.
That's still no consolation here and now.
I can still remember every little thing you've ever said to me.
& it's resonating deep in my head and won't go away.
I'm not looking for fair. Not even close.
I can't keep pretending I'm fine now.
'Coz I feel like I'm headed for a breakdown.
& I don't even know why.
I know right now you don't care.
But I do. It's my heart on the line this time.
So,baby come back to me.

BAH HUMBUG! :P
Nobody.. wants to be lonely.
I'm no exception.

2009-02-08T14:39:00.005+08:00

These..

walls..

around..

Jericho..

will..

fall!

I'm still messed up okay? Sorry Sara that I've seemed pissed/ emo/ sad sometimes. Ya, It's still the same reason. I'll be fine I promise.
Shyt.. these cuts are deep.

BITE ME! <3
Dare ya?
I can change everything,
But I can't change anything.

2009-02-06T16:26:00.003+08:00
I am basically bored...

1. Besides your mouth, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
My Arse =D

2. Were you happy when you woke up today?
I guess so. Was too sleepy to remember.

3. How about now?
Yup!

4. Do you eat candy on a daily basis?
No. But if you could give moi a pack of M&Ms everyday.

5. Who was the last person you ate with?
Sara and Kimmy

6. Are you currently taking a science class in school?
DUH!! Triple science! Hello!!

7. Kiss on the first date?
Maybe. Would depend on how the date when.

8. Would you rather have chicken or steak?
Chicken.

9. What were you doing at 10 am?
Would be sleeping but no... I have school.
I was in geog lesson. :x

10. Are you different now than you were six months ago?
I guess you can say that.

11. What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
Can I change this question to the last thing I've spilled on Kimmy?
It would be tom yam soup. lol...
& it isn't the 1st thing I've spilled on her. :x

12. How old will you be in 10 months?
Sweet Sixteen yea...

13. Who was the last person to text you?
My cousin, Jolynn.

14. What month is your birthday in?
Octobert.

15. Can you live a day without TV?
Yup... Don't watch much TV anyway.

16. When was the last time you saw your dad?
Last night.

17. How many pets do you have?
None.

18. Are you a female or a male?
The last time I checked, female. -.-

19. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
Bare feet.

20. What are you doing for your next birthday?
Erm... Studying for my O's? lol...

21. What are you thinking about right now?
How to answer this question

22. Any plans for next weekend?
Hmm.. next weekend is valentine's day eh...
Nah... Not really.

23. Do you smile a lot?
Not as much as I used to... But still, ya.

24. When was the last time you cried and why?
Erm... Couple of days back. Don't think I really need to say why.

25. Have you ever had a life-threatening injury?
Nope.

26. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Human resource manager or...
A SUPERSTAR! lol...

27. Do you like flying or driving?
Driving.

28. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
Say what?

29. What is your favourite thing to spend money on?
Food!! XD

30. Do you wear any jewelry daily?
No...

31. Who got you the jewelry you are currently wearing?
Do Earring Studs count? I bought them.

32. Who is the funniest person you know?
Irdina.

33. How often do you remember your dreams?
Close to never.

34. What is your ringtone?
No ringtone. Sorry to say. :(
Phone's on silent 24/7.

EVELYN's DOING HER BEST TO WAIT PATIENLY FOR MONDAY TO COME.
I need a haircut you see...

Bite me! <3

2009-02-05T16:29:00.004+08:00

Hope dangles on a string,
like slow spinning redemption.
Winding in and winding out,
the shine of it has caught my eye.

'sup? I'm back!!
Ya... Well, ignore that possibly emo verse at the top ya?
'coz I'm anything but that!
At least that's what I think.
Anyway, that's beside my point...

TUESDAY
Had cl'b. So naturally, I went for cl'b. Being the good student I am. XD Anyway, our class got split into two. So now, I'm with Sara while Kimmy's with Maria. Sad eh? Anyway, where I was sitting, I had to turn my head to talk to Sara. So, I did... And there were these three boys from temasek secondary sitting strategicly in my view when I turn to look at Sara. Then we had project work. Had to present. So it was those three guys' turn. While walking by us, one of them said to his friend, "why does that girl keep staring at me?"

-.- Zzz.... BHB. Like I would stare at him. He wasn't even hot. Just really tall. If I want to stare at least stare at his friend right? All better-looking than him. -.- So while I was bitching to Sara, that BHB Temasek Sec boy keep talking to his friend about me. Walao... Oh, then Sara, Kimmy and I ended taking the same bus as them. So suay. Don't feel like going CL'B anymore. -.-

WEDNESDAY
Assembly- Mr Yeo announcing sport results.

Softball
Bedok North beat TEMASEK SECONDARY

Yay!!!! XD
Damn it! I'm down for physic remedial. Thanks alot mom.
Ohwell... -.-

Cry, but don't tell anyone.
scared you might not be the golden one.
All tied together with a smile.
But coming undone.

2009-02-01T14:01:00.002+08:00
Ah.. there goes my saturdays...

XD

2009-01-31T11:50:00.004+08:00
Yo! Me again! Ok, so I just got home from Chemistry lesson. Yup, it's a saturday. You're not wrong. From this week onwards, 4E is going to spend 2 hours of their weekend stuck in BNSS with Mdm Haliza. Great way to start the weekend eh? Well, there goes two perfectly good hours of sleep. Anyway, Evelyn is now going to proceed to lead her double life. For I proclaim that on the weekends, she's not Evelyn any more! Well, I'll always be Evelyn... but! Evelyn shall now be super nerd on weekends!!! lol... I'm serious though... Well, gotta go! Time to be super nerd! XD

<3 you know you love me...

Fifteen...

2009-01-27T01:04:00.002+08:00
Fifteen-Taylor Swift

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
You say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way
It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
You know I haven't seen you around, before

(Chorus)
'Cause when you're fifteen and
Somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like
There's nothing to figure out
But count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know
Who you're gonna be
Fifteen

You sit in a class next to a redheaded Abigail
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughing at the others girls
Who think they're so cool
We'll be out of here as soon as we can
And then you're on you're very first date
And he's got a car and you're feeling like flying
And you're mamma's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one
And you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends
When the night ends

(Chorus)
'Cause when you're fifteen and
Somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss
Makes you head spin 'round but
In your life you'll do things greater
Than dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted
Was to be wanted
Wish you could go back
And tell yourself what you know now

Back then I swore I was gonna
Marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
Who changed his mind
And we both cried

(Chorus)
'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be
At fifteen

la la la la la...la la la la la...la la la la la

Your very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

Gosh,
this is everything I probably have done
except I wasn't exactly fifteen at the start of my story..
13 maybe?
But the song ends where I'm... well, fifteen?
Gosh...

2009-01-25T00:52:00.002+08:00
Evelyn
needs
an
UPGRADE!!!!

Just fine- Mary J Blige
You know I love music
And every time I hear something hot
It makes me wanna move
It makes me wanna have fun
But it’s something about this joint right here
This joint right here
Its makes me wanna…..Woooh

Let it go……
Can’t let this thing called love get away from you
Feel free right now, going do what you want to do
Can’t let nobody take it away, from you, from me, from we
No time for moping around, are you kidding?
And no time for negative vibes, cause I’m winning
It’s been a long week, I put in my hardest
Gonna live my life, feels so good to get it right

So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain’t worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I aint gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just fine

Feels so good, when you’re doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
Keep your head up high
In yourself, believe in you, believe in me
Having a really good time, I’m not complaining
And I’m a still wear a smile if it raining
I got to enjoy myself regardless
I appreciate life, I’m so glad I got mine
So I like what I see when I’m looking at me

When I’m walking past the mirror
Aint worried about you and what you gonna do
I’m a lady so I must stay classy
Got to keep it hot, keep it together
If I want to get better
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine

I aint gon’ let nothing get in my way
(I ain't gone let nobody bring me down, no, no, no)
No matter what nobody has to say
(No way, no way, no way)
I ain’t gon’ let nothing get in my way
No matter what nobody has to say

Feels so good, when you’re doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
It’s a really good thing to say
That I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine

So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain’t worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I ain’t gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just fine

2009-01-24T23:45:00.003+08:00
Hey, Evelyn's back!

Ok, so I survived the 22nd.
had a great day besides the fact my class had a physics test.
I wouldn't be surprised if I flunked it. :x
Shall be absolubly honest and come clean to say that I didn't study.
Was studying for Social Studies.
Went to ECP after.
Remember that Sara and I were singing at the top of our lungs.
Also remember that some sec 3s from another school were staring at us. lol..
Ohoh!!! & apparently, I am now married. o.o
Yup, that's what I said.
Married to who?
Some random guy who was on bus 15.
Why, you ask?
Well... let me reanact the scene for you.

Random guy was with his friend who was sitting behind him.
Bus 15 was crowded when we got on so we had to stand.

Some time after getting on board... After the seat next to random guy became vacant.
Let me add that the seat was next to the window and I was standing in front of him making a lot of noise. :x

-girl next to random guy stands up and gets off the bus-
5mins later...
random guy's friend: Eh.. Why don't you let your wife sit down?
random guy: (to me) Would you like to sit?
me: o.o Er.. no thanks. But Sara might like to.

lol.... So yup, apparently I'm now married.
To a random guy on bus 15. yay! o.o
Can't even remember his face la!
& Sara, stop asking why you weren't invited to my wedding. -.-
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Well, yesterday was the CNY celebration in BNSS.
Sorry pictures and vid aren't up.
Shall do my best to find the motivation to put them up, ya?

Oh, and I'm done painting my room.
Lovin' how it looks now! XD
I want to do a design on the wall though..

The 2nd part of the chick vs. dick on the truth and dare challenge is out.
So here's the two parts together..
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Chick vs. Dick: EP27 & EP28 - The Truth or Dare Challenge
Paul and Kay Kay get raunchy in a game of Truth or Dare. What was Kay Kay's most embarrassing bedroom moment? Or Paul's kinkiest fantasy? And what does Kay Kay think of Paul's kissing skills?

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Anyway, that's all for today.
Happy chinese new year to all.
Please don't ask me for hong bao coz I'm not really married.
lalala~ XD
Signing off...

2009-01-22T06:36:00.002+08:00
Look... it's the 22nd. yay... -.- -sarcasm-
S.S. Test, (brain cell killer)
Physics Test, (brain cell killer)
Disecting eyes,
Mdm Haliza's lesson, (sleep inducer)
phew...
yay...
Beach!! XD
CNY Shopping!! XD
... ...

I'm praying that I'll make it through today in one piece..

2009-01-21T18:33:00.004+08:00

Evelyn
needs...

consoling...

cooing over...

and all of your LURVE!

In fact, she needs all you can give.
This applies to everyone by the way.
Or...
You can get her a new

bikini/

Cherries/ ... ...

Or, a new temporary boyfriend!

Okok, so Evelyn wasn't serious about the last part..
But she seriously doesn't mind! XD
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Ok, Found some random pic...

OMG! Steve Chia acting cute!! I'm sure you know what this is...
Problem is, in BNSS(Budget North Secondary), it's always empty...
Kimmy is in a state of shock...
So, capture the moment of bessings from the toilet... _______________________________________________________

Evelyn's art ain't bad right? XD

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Alright...
So you wanna find Evelyn tomorrow?
Try looking at the beaches of Singapore.
'Coz that's where she's headed tomorrow...
Right...
After...
School!
XD...
Ciao!

2009-01-19T14:56:00.006+08:00
*Newsflash!*
I just found out.
My best friend's look-alike's name isn't Alvin Lau.
His name is...
Can't remember.
Damn... :x
Anyway, that leaves the very important question!
WHO IS MR ALVIN LAU??
lol... If you do know, please point out to me kay? XD
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Anyway, I'm painting my room orange.
Lol.. I need change.
It's a nice shade of orange okay!
It's actual name is 'Zing'.
Sounds really invigorating.
Just what I need.
lol.. But anyway,
I'm supposed to paint it this Friday and Saturday.
Yay! XD
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The Scientist- Coldplay
Come up to meet you, tell you Im sorry
You dont know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you

Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science,
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
Im going back to the start

Could we start again please?

2009-01-18T15:01:00.003+08:00
Maybe,
ask if I'm sad.
I'll say no.
Believe it?
No?
Then you're wrong.

Maybe,
ask if I'm angry.
I'll say no.
Believe it?
Yes?
Then you're wrong again.
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Life is really fragile alright,
so treasure yours.
So much is happening
you'll never know what's going to occur tomorrow.
So live like theres no tomorrow
and learn like life's forever.
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Now ask,
"Evelyn, what the hell is wrong with you today?"
Nothing. Really!
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White Horse- Taylor Swift

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
And I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
And days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known

That I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

Here you are your sitting there
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm sooo sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
Now it's too late for you and your white horse
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late
To catch me now
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*Please note that my playlist may or may not represent my feelings and emotions.*

2009-01-16T22:11:00.002+08:00
Hey! I'm back again~~
So what's new this week?
Well... The broadcasting studio was put to good use for the 1st time.
So, Irdina was the DJ this time.. yea...
Oh well, my turn can't possibly be too far off.
So it's the usual..
Learning standard deviation, the nervous system, alkanes..
blablabla..
Anyway, paid the counsellor a visit yesterday. lol..
Sara's idea.
Thanks alot Sara!
But I've never felt better! Hah!

The day before that, Kimmy and Sara came over to my house.
Just to use my computer. -.-
Some friends I have... Just kidding!
Don't take it to heart ya?
That was to Kimmy and Sara btw. ",)

& I found out another random fact about myself today,
What is it?
Well, I was bloody short in Primary one. :x
Yup, that's what I found out. lol...
I was only 1.17 m tall.
Pathatic right?
I was asking everyone else around me how tall they were then,
All taller than me. Damn...
Ohwell, at least I caught up and I now taller!
Hah! Oh, that felt good to know. >.<

Oh, and I went with Kimmy and Sara to Orchard Road today.
Was supposed to meet Sara's friend and another *ahem* friend as well.
Both boys la..
One's from ACS called ShinYao.
He's the meanie who wouldn't even let me touch his precious laptop.
& somehow everytime I take one step towards him,
he takes two in the opposite direction.
Hmm... Evelyn never knew she was that scary.
Lol... How is that possible? *scratches head*
After all, Evelyn IS very innocent and would never harm a guy. XD
How would I even be able to cause bodily harm to him anyway? o.o
Should have stayed a lil' longer and I would be able to see her
*AHEM* friend. >.<
Please don't kill me Sara... :x

Anyway,
CNY is arriving!
Have you cast your vote for the teacher's performances yet?
Make sure you donate at least $2 to the " So you think you can dance " performance.
Remember! Mr Lau! Main Dancer! >.<
lol..
Don't forget!
Bring your camcorders and cameras!!
Then upload to youtube for the world to see!!!
In the name of charity remember!
VOTE NOW! FOR MR LAU AND HIS DANCE TROUPE!!
XD

Ah... ohoh! & you know that new teacher, Mr Alvin Lau...
Poor him. A mix of Mr Lau and Mr Ho. Lol..
Anyway... he looks like my best friend!
You know my best friend that I apparently don't talk to?
lol... Too bad he's still shorter and skinnier than my best friend though..
That's alright. I probably won't see my best friend again.
So he'll make a good substitute. >.< lol...

And I guess that's all for this week..
If you notice that as the weeks go by,
my life consist of just homework and schoolwork, don't be suprised.
Anyway, gotta go. Ciao!
& So I'm waiting,
waiting on the world to change.

Broken Strings

2009-01-14T19:03:00.003+08:00
Broken Strings Feat. Nelly Furtado
-James Morrison

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that aint real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that aint real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that aint real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before
Oh and I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last change to feel again

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Ah... Sweet music. >.<

2009-01-12T17:53:00.004+08:00
Ok, so today is one of those days I get lucky and get to use the computer. But I have to go soon so this won't be one of them long posts.

So today is the 12th of January. that means that the GCE O'level results were released today. Yea... So congrats to those who did well. & for those who didn't, it's alright. It's another learning experience ya? Learn from your mistakes and move on with life. Just donn't repeat the mistake again.

Ok, so I can't judge. I haven't had mine. At least not yet. But it's scary thinking how next year it would be my turn to be in the same hall receiving my results. & I want to be one of those people jumping around like retards 'coz they did really well. Ok, maybe not quite... But you get the idea ya?

Well, I guess that's almost all. Oh, I forgot to take a photo of the broadcasting studio. Damn... -.-
Oh well, gotta remember to take one on wednesday. Anyway, gotta go, so ciao!

He can't see the smile I'm faking
And my heart's not breaking
Cause I'm not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating intoxicating
Complicated, got away by some mistake and now
-The Way I Loved You, Taylor Swift
<3#
I've got to let it go start protecting my heart and soul
Cause I don't think I'll survive a goodbye again.

TP open house/ Gramp's B'day

2009-01-10T21:07:00.006+08:00
I have so much to blog about! Where should I start? OMGOMGOMG!!!

Well, school finally started with the 3 day Adam Khoo 'I am gifted' course. It was pretty good I must say. Lot's of tears there. & hot assistant trainer or something! Lol.. The most exciting thing that happened this week? Going to Temasek Poly's Open house.

Went with Sara and Kimmy to Temasek Poly's Open House on thursday. It's was freaking crowded! Some schools were brought there as a level! & I swear I saw my ex-classmate from CCPS. & I've finally found out my blood type. A student from the applied science school was giving a blood test to find your blood group there. Turns out, I'm a 'B'. Hmm.. I remember Miss Lenny telling us about 'Blood Type Personalities' when my class was studying on the circulatory system. Apparently, blood type B people are...

"Goal oriented and strong minded, type B's will start a task and continue it until completed, and completed well. Type B's are the individualists of the blood group categories and find their own way in life."

Want to find out what yours means? http://www.bellaonline.com/

Anyway, I've decided. I'm going to try to get into JC and take the arts course. But if I can't get into a good one, then scrap that. I'll go to Poly. One of these three... TP, NP or SP. Then I'll take the business diploma. XD See... I've got goals! lol..

Oh! & if you didn't know,
Bedok North now has it's very own broadcasting studio in our very own library. All that music and irritating voice over the PA system on thursday was due to the tests being ran over at the broadcasting studio. We'll be going on air for the first time in Bedok North Secondary history this coming thursday! Hereen and Aaron will be the lucky first to go on air! When I say 'on air' here, I really mean only over our PA system though. But the DJ booth is bloody nice! Shall take a picture the next time I'm in it. Which will be on Monday. XD Along with Hereen, Jesslyn, Irdina, Sara, Joel and Aaron. Cool ain't it? We're going to be DJs! XD Ok, so I'm a little high about it. Fine.. VERY high! But it's so bloody cool that my vocab has gone to the dogs!

Wait wait! There's more! Yesterday was my grandfather's 80th birthday! So we went to somewhere near the Esplanade. You know, where the Lim Bo Seng Memorial is? Yup! There.. Apparently, when my grandparents were younger, they went dating there. Dating on the boardwalk! Apparently, it's still a pretty popular place to go dating. Saw many young couples. So remember arh! People who are dating, go there! Got river and the works! lol..

I swear my grandparent are like the most loving couple I know!
Seriously! They're always holding hands and all. Maybe it's just me. Anyway, here's my grandparents back at where they came dating many many years ago. & they can still remember it!

Wait wait! Almost done! Here's the long awaited Chick Vs. Dick episode!
Chick vs. Dick: EP27 - The Truth or Dare Challenge (Part 1)
Paul and Kay Kay get raunchy in a game of Truth or Dare. What was Kay Kay's most embarrassing bedroom moment? Or Paul's kinkiest fantasy? And what does Kay Kay think of Paul's kissing skills? Vote for who you think did better!

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Alright, I'm done. But let me leave with a song. XD
Innocence- Avril Lavigne
Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry

This innocence is brilliant, it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliance, please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

Sounds like a really sad song if you didn't understand English. Even the Music Video seems emo to me. Wierd eh? Maybe it's just me again.
P.S. To students from BNSS waiting for O'level results:
O'level results are released this monday. That is 2 days away on the 12th of January 2009!!! Don't forget! Don't be absent!
P.P.S Now that school's started, I can blog only once a week. Twice if I'm lucky. So get used to uber long entries!
Bite me!<3

2009-01-04T12:19:00.005+08:00
It's official! Evelyn stall prove it! The fact that nusery rhymes are disturbing and should not be taught to little children! & here's the prove!

You know the the nusery rhyme ' Mary Mary Quite Contrary'? No? Well, here's how it goes..

Mary Mary quite contrary,
How does your garden grow?
With silver bells and cockle shells
And pretty maids all in a row.

Sounds like a pretty normal rhyme doesn't it? Well, here's what you didn't know! Let's look closer into the highlighted words.

'Mary Mary Quite Contrary'
The Mary alluded to in this traditional English nursery rhyme is reputed to be Mary Tudor, or Bloody Mary, who was the daughter of King Henry VIII. She was a staunch Catholic and the garden refered to in this rhyme actually refers to graveyards which were increasing in size with those who were Protestants - Protestant martyrs. Scary huh? It doesn't just stop here!

'Silver bells and cockle shells'
The 'silver bells and cockle shells' referred to in the Nursery Rhyme were instruments of torture. The 'silver bells' were thumbscrews which crushed the thumb between two hard surfaces by the tightening of a screw. While the 'cockleshells' were believed to be instruments of torture which were attached to the genitals! How do you feel about nursery rhymes now? Wait wait... It's still not over yet!

'Pretty maids'
The 'maids' were a device to behead people called the Maiden whick is now know as the guillotine.

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Here's another short nursary rhyme to prove my point

Have you ever heard of 'Ring Around The Rosy'? This is how it goes.

Ring around the rosy
A pocketful of posies
"Ashes, Ashes"
We all fall down!

Sound familiar? Well, the words to the Ring around the rosy children's ring game have their origin in English history . It dates back to the Great Plague of London in 1665 (bubonic plague) or even before when the first outbreak of the Plague hit England in the 1300's.

The symptoms of the plague included a rosy red rash in the shape of a ring on the skin (Ring around the rosy).

Pockets and pouches were filled with sweet smelling herbs ( or posies) which were carried due to the belief that the disease was transmitted by bad smells.

The term "Ashes Ashes" refers to the cremation of the dead bodies! The death rate was over 60% and the plague was only halted by the Great Fire of London in 1666 which killed the rats which carried the disease which was transmitting via water sources. The English version of "Ring around the rosy" replaces Ashes with (A-tishoo, A-tishoo) as violent sneezing was another symptom of the disease.

Have I proved my point yet? So listen to me and do not let your children listen to nursery rhymes! >.<
Infomation gotten from www.rhymes.org.uk

2009-01-04T12:10:00.003+08:00
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between
- Over My Head (Cable Car) by The Fray

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy
- Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
-I Miss You by Blink 182

I'll admit it.
I still miss you.
I still wish you were mine.
I still wish you were here.
I still want you by my side.
I still want to know what happened.
I still wonder why.
I still don't understand.
I still need to know.
It's that really it?
So what is that supposed mean?
that I'm only worth so little of your time.
That's it? I guess so.
So what about it? 'Coz I still don't know a thing.
I still love you...

2009-01-01T11:16:00.006+08:00
Happy New Year!!!
So,it's finally 2009 and I guess all of you are probably busy preparing to go back to school. Or for those who have finished thier O'levels, busy being bored mabe? I wouldn't know. So, it's 2009. 2008's now past history. So hae you made new year resolutions for 2009 yet? Personally, between you and me, I always make one, or two. But I never ever keep to them. So for this year, these are my new year resolutions for 2009. But lets do it a little differently. I'll do 26 new year resolutions. One for each alphabet ya? But with so many, I guess it can't be a New Year Resolution list anymore. Well, let's just turn it into a to-do list for 2009 then! Plus with so many. I'll at the least be able to keep to a few. XD Ok... So here goes... my Alphabet New Year To-do list for 2009!

Ace my O'levels
Become a full time nerd till the o'level ends.( XD )
Commit to my new year resolutions.
Do all my homework. (At least most of it. :x)
Ease up on all that candy time. (lol..)
Face my fears. (eg. Heights, insects... etc..)
be a very Guai kid. ( XD )
Help my mother with the housework more often.
Ingest nutritious food. (lol... Need to GAIN weight. >.<) live by Justified needs not wants
Keep better track of time.
Less time at the computer. (That would mean less blogging. :( )
More time with my head buried in books
Not give excuses to skip church
Open up more to other people. ( phew, lots of o's here. XD )
not Piss off my parents. ( :x )
Quit misplacing my belongings.
Read up more!
Say no to BGR! (Wonder how I'm going to do that.. :x)
Take five after all that much done. ( XD )
get something done about my Unruly hair!
not Vent my frustrations of my poor teddy bears. ( :x)
X- Can't think of any. :x
Y- Argh! Brain Cells dying!!!
Z- NO!!!!!

Whoa that was long! Time to relax with some music! XD

My new 'feel good' song.
Just Dance, Lady Gaga Feat. Coldby O'Donis

My new 'In Your Face' Song
Let It Rock, Kevin Rudolf Feat. Lil' Wayne

New music obsession:
Crag David!!!
Sang songs like:
I'm Sorry (I Don't Love You No More)
hmm... Situation sounds remotely familiar....

And also another hit song:
Insomnia
Trust me, you'll fall in love with his music. XD

As well as many more!
Anyway, Gotta go. Ciao!

For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me ~~girl~~boy:

Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.
- Don't Love you No More( I'm Sorry), Craig David

2008-12-29T01:32:00.003+08:00
Yo 'sup niggars? XD Sorry, just really wanted to say that.
Anyway, E's back in town. What's new? I really missed... My pillow, my bed, my teddy bears, school. Most of all... My love, Sara. XD
Yup! She's my new love. Wahahah. She'll be my witness. That don't mean that I'm not straight ok! I don't bend that way!

Eh... What's that? What did I do in Malaysia? The usual I guess? Shop, blog, eat. Pretty much what I've been doing during this holiday here in Singapore anyway. Ah.. Oh well..

Ohoh! & I did something while I was up in Genting. But it's a secret for now. You'll see in school. What's that? You don't go to my school? No? You've left my school? oh, that's too bad! :P You've gotta wait till some random picture of me appears of my blog or those of my lil' miss'es.

Anyway, that's pretty much it for now. It's late/early. Whatever you want to call it. So Ciao! Cya all on Friday. If you go to my school. BNSS. Otherwise known as Budget North Sec or Raffles North High School. XD

2008-12-27T19:07:00.003+08:00
Here are 10 weird things/habits / little known facts about myself :

♥ I dislike shopping.
So if I date or "date" you, please don't torture me. XD

♥ I am boliao.
For proof, ask my mom. XD

♥ I hate making friends but once you're my friend I'll love you for life.
Just like how Sara and I love each other now. lol..

♥My EX-boyfriends NEVER become my friends unless we were bloody close as friends before.

Just for the record, you know.

♥ I LOVE LOVE LOVE me, myself and I.
XD True story kays!

♥i'm addicted to clicknetwork.tv

♥I love to be alone but not for too long.
Or I'll go nuts. You don't want to see Evelyn when she is nuts. :x

♥I love doing homework. :D
Believe it!!! :D

♥I am, like Rosiana, very innocent, extremly guai.
Believe it hor!!! XD

♥I am very quiet.
Serious! See what my report card says everytime under teacher's comments. XD

Now these 10 people have to crack their head off
Sara!
HuiJuan!
Kimmy!
RuiQin!
Aiya! Anyone also can la!

Peace!

...
Waitwait!!!
Not over yet la!!

Gives You Hell
- The All-American Rejects

I wake up every evening
With a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place.
And you're still probably working
At a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that day is

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell

Now where's your picket fence, love
And where's that shiny car
Did it ever get you far?
You never seemed so tense, love
Never seen you fall so hard
Do you know where you are?

Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a ~~man~~ girl that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then she's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Where did it all go wrong?
But the list goes on and on

Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a ~~man~~ girl that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then she's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see
What you've done to me
You can take back your memories
They're no good to me
And here's all your lies
If you look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look
That you wear so well

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a ~~man~~ girl that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then she's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell (hope it gives you hell)
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell (hope it gives you hell)
When you hear this song and you sing along well you'll never tell
And you're the fool I've just as well I hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell
You can sing along I hope it puts you through hell

Wahahahah! Yea.. that's cool. Hope it really gives you hell!
This brings bitching to a whole new level. Bitching using a song. lols..
Ah.. oh well, my blog, me being bitchy = Okay. :P
lalala~

Aww... Anyway, before all hell breaks loose(pun intented), here's a " Chick vs. Dick Challenge " for you to enjoy. :)

Chick vs. Dick: EP26 - The Christmas Challenge

Paul and Kay Kay get each other Christmas gifts on a $15 budget! Paul tries to score a kiss from Kay Kay with a poem under the mistletoe, while Kay Kay's gift leaves Paul touched and speechless. Vote for who you think had the better gift!

* Shall upload next episode once it is up. " Chick vs. Dick: Ep 27- The truth or Dare Challenge "

XD

phew! Some post that was. 3 random items put together into a post. Ha! Anyway, I guess that's it for now. Ciao!

P.S. I'm missing all you guys! :'( Well, at least it's less than a week till I see all of you again! * brightens up immedialy*

* guys as in friends, pals, buddies, etc... You get what I mean.

I don't need a ring around my finger,
don't make me feel complete.
So let me break it down,
I can get off when you ain't around.
I am woman, hear me roar.
RAWR!!! XD

2008-12-25T20:33:00.004+08:00

Hey guys, 'Sup? I'm currently up in Genting. So I'm just updating my blog about the christmas party I had over at my eight aunt's house over X'mas eve.

Reached at 6. Everyone else was already there. Well, almost everyone...
Was drizzling slightly so we couldn't leave the house. Which isn't a very bad thing when the house is a modern three-story house called the Oasis haha.. Anyway, I've probably said this before but their house is frekking huge! So I'll say it again anyway, My cousin's house is FREAKING huge!! lol... Sorry, Evelyn is currently self entertained. Shall tell you guys about my trip some other day. Maybe tomorrow. Hmm... Anway... Here's some pictures to sum out just about what happened.

Ahh.. The evergreen christmas tree. You can't miss it!

Dinner! Had Baked Pork Ribs with apples for dinner and potatos and salad on the side. Ohoh! & there was Mushroom soup. A tad bit too creamy though... Hungry yet? XD

See.. Popo, 3rd aunt, mummy and diana jie jie enjoying their food so much they don't see me taking photo. Haiz... Sad.

Everyone's waiting for cake!! Log cake! & the accompanied performance by my younger cousins. XD

No!!! Ice cream log cake is gone!!! :'(
Oh well, Merry Christmas y'all! XD

Dylan is self entertained. While darryl was dancing. lol..

Anway, here's where I do my best to make you all jealous by showing you my christmas presents! Wahahahah! Evil Evelyn has emerged!!!

Gettit? So be happy if I'm dating you. 'Coz I'm giving you a compliment. lol..

Perlin's Silver( correct right?) bracelet. Bloody nice okay!

Set of four christmasy (lol..) earrings. Either from my 8th aunt or 7th aunt. :x paiseh. My memory is very bad. :x

Another bracelet. But it's too big so now it's an anklet. lol.. Once again I'm unsure if this is from my 8th aunt or 7th aunt. :x

r.. Piggy bank. People want me to save money but it's so small! :x Excuses excuses. lol..

Books fron 6th aunt and 3rd aunt respectively... If I'm not wrong.

Another pair of earings from my 2nd aunt. Kinda scared to wear it. 'coz the chain hurts. Damn hole in my ear is too small. Damn! :x

Well, that's all peeps. I'll be in malaysia till Sunday. Shall be in KL tomorrow and Sunday. So I'll try and update my blog but not promises kay. :) Anay, stay tuned! Alright. gotta go. Ciao!

P.S. For those who are worried about my, Don't worry. No more cutting saga or what nonsense anymore. I'm gone here. So I won't torture myself. Kay? So don't worry. :)

Shining Stars, Warming Hearts

2008-12-25T20:18:00.003+08:00

Ahh.. My beloved shining STARS. But some are missing. Darn it. Oh well... :( The STARS are going out this Sunday. But I'll be in Malaysia.

Anyway, I'm digressing. I'm supposed to be talking about the event 'Shining Stars, Warming Hearts' that was held at Kim Seng CC last Saturday. I was in charge of programmes hence I was constantly running up and down like an idiot. lol.. Was really tired by the time of the performance was over. Would say more but I gotta go.

In the meantime, here's a music vid for you.

I Hate This Part
- The Pussycat Dolls

& that's that. So we'll leave it at that.

2008-12-23T18:50:00.005+08:00
Guess what? My gut feelings weren't wrong afterall. I was right all time along. I guess along the way I forgot he's just a boy. Nothing more. Nothing less. Irony: Mrs Yeow was talking about relantionships while Kimmy and I were talking about the different kind of guys and the proposed endings just yesterday. Ha.. You know, I really thought he'll be different. I guess I thought wrong and so did everyone else apparently. I've really debunked the saying that "distance makes the heart grow fonder" this time. But I guess if that makes him happy I guess I should be happy too. Or at least try to be. For him, maybe for myself? But I wish I could cry it all out but then I remember. I'm not the girl that mopes over every little thing. So here's to it. One tear is all I'll shed. And that's that. Nothing more. I don't need any sympathy. I'm not asking for any. I don't have the time to grief. No more deja vu. No more two year cycle. Twice is more than enough. So not this time. No more indulging time. Today will be the last. & that's that. It's over... ..

When
we look back,

you'll see,
No pain.
Just regrets...
I'll feel,
No hurt.
Just emptiness...
We'll remember,
No hatred.
Just memories...

When It All Falls Apart lyrics
-The Veronicas

I'm having the day from hell,
It wasn't all going so well (before you came)
And you told me you needed space,
With a kiss on the side my face (not again)
And not to mention (the tears I shed)
But I should have kicked your (ass instead)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream

Cause baby
Everything is F-ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)
And not to mention (I drank too much)
I'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream

Cause baby
Everything is F-ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Can it be easier?
Can I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad everytime
Will I be mending?
another one ending once again

Everything is F-ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No [x2]

Falls apart
Gotta pick myself up 'cause things are messed up

P.S. Post on event "Shining Stars, Warming Hearts" and "Council Bonding Camp 'o8" shall be up soon. Tomorrow if possible. I need to be kept a busy woman.

P.P.S. Sorry guys, If I was acting kinda wierd today. I couldn't stop smiling though. Is that good? Or bad? Sorry Kimmy. Was a little nuts today.

So this is goodbye,
Just like this.
Weren't you the one
who wanted this?

2008-12-19T20:23:00.003+08:00
I love WeiSheng!
He just saved my life! XD
Wahahahah!

So.. Christmas party is tomorrow afternoon. So I need to be at Kim Seng CC by 9.30 tomorrow. That means I need to leave my house at 8.30 and wake up at 6.30. Don't ask me why I want to wake up so early. It's a habit. XD

Anyway, everyone else is down at the CC helping out with the decoration. Sorry WenBin that I'm not there. :x
Gotta go for now. Still need to get everything ready for tomorrow. Ciao.